again with this feeling.....

it happens again. like always, it happen toward someone i knew and care about... sometimes it puzzles. why do this problem follows me wherever i go!!! isn't because of me or its just simply a fate...

fate...
a word that always echoing inside me brain. i do really hope that i can lift the sadness from her and let the sadness be with so that i can see a smile on her face again. but suddenly "fate" rushing it way to bring myself back to real world... nevertheless, fate is nothing to do with this. it is us who crave our on fate... and approved by HIM.
so i will do anything i could to clear up the sadness in her... but come to think of it, do i have the courage to do so.....

heheheheee...

morning...
wake up and wondering what have i done to my times..

afternoon...
try to study but failed to do so...

evening...
brain says - "i'm overloading... need rest to recover"...
so... fall asleep immediately...

night...
STUDY!!!

what a release!!!!!

today i just summit my lab report that has put myself awake all night!!! not to mention the life i've lost during completing the report.... well everything turn out fine after all....

today i was happy than yesterday, much happier until i met her... well at first, i just play cool about'it, but suddenly she notice me and i cant do anything to greet her back. hopefully she don't thnik smthg bad about me....

too many things to bear all alone...

personally, i quite angry for myself... i spoiled both a.com and my thermo paper in the same day!!!! the worst part is the a-com presentation. i'm so upset about my exam, i cant force myself to focus on the presentation. my heart said to do my best but my body denied it... maybe i force my body way too hard. well, i just want to do my part in the best way i can but i failed!!! what a shame...

now, i still can feel the effect in myself... dragging me slowly into a dark corner of my mind...