again with this feeling.....

it happens again. like always, it happen toward someone i knew and care about... sometimes it puzzles. why do this problem follows me wherever i go!!! isn't because of me or its just simply a fate...

fate...
a word that always echoing inside me brain. i do really hope that i can lift the sadness from her and let the sadness be with so that i can see a smile on her face again. but suddenly "fate" rushing it way to bring myself back to real world... nevertheless, fate is nothing to do with this. it is us who crave our on fate... and approved by HIM.
so i will do anything i could to clear up the sadness in her... but come to think of it, do i have the courage to do so.....

heheheheee...

morning...
wake up and wondering what have i done to my times..

afternoon...
try to study but failed to do so...

evening...
brain says - "i'm overloading... need rest to recover"...
so... fall asleep immediately...

night...
STUDY!!!

what a release!!!!!

today i just summit my lab report that has put myself awake all night!!! not to mention the life i've lost during completing the report.... well everything turn out fine after all....

today i was happy than yesterday, much happier until i met her... well at first, i just play cool about'it, but suddenly she notice me and i cant do anything to greet her back. hopefully she don't thnik smthg bad about me....

too many things to bear all alone...

personally, i quite angry for myself... i spoiled both a.com and my thermo paper in the same day!!!! the worst part is the a-com presentation. i'm so upset about my exam, i cant force myself to focus on the presentation. my heart said to do my best but my body denied it... maybe i force my body way too hard. well, i just want to do my part in the best way i can but i failed!!! what a shame...

now, i still can feel the effect in myself... dragging me slowly into a dark corner of my mind...

it have been a while.....

well, people always give some advices and i dont care much about it. ussually, all of the advices doesn't affect me a little. but somehow, advice like "if it is not worth it then just let it go because you always deserve someone better" really make me thinks deeply about myself, especially when i heard it from her herself...

maybe shes right. maybe everyone right. i followed my heart way too much. and now, it all about to change!!! it is better for me to be happy for her rather sad for myself.

okay then, it settle! tomorrow shall rise a new 'me'....

@#%$&$%^#@

ARGHHHH!!!!!!! there goes 30% of my final marks. fly away from me like leaves glide through the wind. want to do how depressed i am now? ok... try imagine rm 10 fly with the blowing wind. now try to imagine that there are 100,000,000,000 more rm 10 flying away from you...... i still can't do the mid-sem test although i have studied all night long!!! what a waste of effort...

epy ending at last, i guess....

hahahahaaa... thanks god the thermo mid-sem is not so tough but i still think that i can do better than today. nevermind that, i still have two more mid-sem test coming my way - wave and mechanics. hope can do much better than today... huhuhu..
hmmmm... she too has a lovely and happy day.....

hahahahahaa... yesterday was a sad day indeed. many things happen, first the "fallen math mid-sem test", next i lost my room key, and knowing the sadness she is having right now. each of them strike me hard on the back of my head!!! what a day...

so today i hope it will be different and better than yesterday...
may today be a fine day for her too.....

hi there...
this is my first attend to create my very own blog. hope u guys can help me since i'm not so familiar with all of the gadgets and more...

looking forward for your helping in the near future...